Writing these blogs has helped my spelling and vocabulary. Everytime I'm not sure about how to spell a word I google it and pops up the correct spelling and definition. So I don't sound like a complete idiot I force my husband to read over it and find mistakes. By that time I've already posted it and the 2 people that read my blog have already commented on it. Since I don't read and this is the first time writing in years I'm a little out of practice.
Since I'm talking about my intelligence, the other day someone said something to me that really hurt my feelings. This person has no idea and I'm not going to tell them, because I'm sure they didn't mean to. I'm very touchy on this subject I grew up being told I wasn't smart enough. Second grade my teacher made a meeting with my mom and I. She told us that I needed to take the second grade over again, because I wasn't catching on as well as the other children. Of course my mom refused to put me into the same grade as my little sister (thank you mom!). Fifth grade I started taking a recource class. Sixth grade it was two classes and by ninth grade I had 4 classes. Image what this did for my self esteem. I wanted to be like everyone else and take normal classes in high school and I did. Half way threw my first semestier of english my teacher came up to me and told me that my reading scores are to low so they would need to put me in a low level reading class. WHAT?? I was furious. I said I would not go that I am doing fine in this class. The teacher then persisted that things would just get harder. I asked the teacher "What is my grade in this class?". of course he replied "an A". Then why would you need to move me into this "lower level class"? Well as the story goes I ended up in that class and in a recource science class as well. You know what resource classes did for me, Nothing! How am I going to catch up with everyone else by going slower? Not only did these classes make me feel stupid. They were full of all the troubled kids and so those are the people I made friends with. My point is I'm not dumb! I learn just as fast as everyone else and It took me 20 years to relize this. Because it took so long for me to realize this I am behind everyone else. The stupid resource classes kept me behind. The reason I'm behind in reading is because I hate reading so therefore I don't do it. Thanks to these blogs I'm reading more because I enjoy what my friends and family have to say. Anyways the nexted time this person says infront of a big crowd, "Everyone knows Megan isn't very smart". I think I just might have to defend myself but by defending myself it will end in tears, because like I said I'm very touchy on this subject.
3 comments:
we know you are smart. i think this person should get over themselves and treat you with more respect. you do deserve it. those resource classes are stupid...my brother was in them and it hurt him more than it helped. i'm so glad you got me into blogging. it's helping me as well.
Who said my sister isn't smart? I need to beat them up!
I have a personal bias towards intelligent people because I don't like having pointless conversations. I have always enjoyed talking with you and being with you.
A sibling of mine has trouble spelling and calls me her walking dictionary. She got better grades than I did in high school because she worked hard. She has her set of skills and I have mine, but neither is better than the other. What makes you successful in school isn't necessarily a reflection of your intelligence. It's a matter of recognizing your strengths, weakness, and figuring out how you learn best.
I know how hard it is to shake the labels given to us as children. Some people will insult us and laugh it off as a joke. If you can assert yourself without the emotion, people will take you more seriously. You don't have to take that crap from anyone. If they keep it up, they've got a smackdown from Canada coming to them. :)
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